Green Day - 21 Guns (Official Video)

how to end

It's been awhile since she made up her mind to put all things behind her. But, as time goes by, it seems she cannot take him out of her mind. There were still times when she find herself wondering about him. She knew him for only two weeks and yet she seems so into him even for a short time. Still, whenever she remembers the considerations he gave her she will just shake off her head and tell herself that she should forget. It was not that easy to do but yet she had to do it. She doesn't have any choice at all. Besides, it is really impossible, they differ in many ways so much. She can never cope with his intelligence. She is just an average person with shallow personality while he seems to know everything and he likes a girl who amazes him with intelligence. One of his friends called him genius. One day, when destiny permits her to meet him unexpectedly, she'll be more than happy to smile for him. But she prefers to keep whatever feelings she have for him. It is better to keep everything left unsaid than regret it later.

The winner takes it all

I don't wanna talk
About the things we've gone through
Though it's hurting me
Now it's history
I've played all my cards
And that's what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That's her destiny

I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I'd be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules

The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It's simple and it's plain
Why should I complain.

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all

I don't wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You've come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all...

family day

We just had our family day today. I was awake for 24 hours and my head was spinning but I had to bear it for my son. Anyways, I had fun watching him on stage. There was also a short talk about parenting for parents. I hope that I can apply those tips in raising my son.

wake up

After so much excitements and day dreaming, she came to her senses now. She is trying to set her mind and put all things behind her. It's not that it is not worth thinking but she thinks that it is the right thing to do. If she'll go on burying herself from what she feels it will surely affect her work. Anyways, she's been always in this situation wherein she's the one who was being left out. She always thought it was her but eventually the truth will come out and it wasn't her instead it was another person. The reason is that, she is fond of assuming and her assumptions always put her in the midst of pain. This time is different though, she has the control over her feelings. She knows now how to manage things as they come. She's too old to dwell so much with petty things. It excites her at first but when it is getting deeper she knows how to come out of the water. She has more important things to look after rather than concentrate with her personal feelings. As what she always says, she can sacrifice her own happiness for her family. She can't compete with the young ones, being at her age and a single mom, they are more likely to be attractive to him than her. She just can't understand herself how she thinks that he would like someone like her. It'll come to pass, she knows that and she can control her mind not to think of him anymore. It's been like this all her life and she's tired of being trap in this kind of situation. She just wants to be happy and she knows that it is up to her to make her life happy.

still

Love the sun for it warms your body
Yet, love the rain for it cools your head
Love the light, it shows you the way
Yet, love the darkness for it shows you the stars
Welcome happiness for it enlarges your heart
Yet, endure sadness for it opens your soul.....

Message:
be grateful for everything, just enjoy every moment
for none of it will happen the same way again....

this is it

The girl finally got her wish. She saw an opportunity to get connected with him. She was so hesitant in doing so. She has to consider so many things before deciding. She asked for a sign and then suddenly a song was played in the radio. The song she heard from him. Her heart stopped and then she did what she had to do. Now, she is just waiting on what will happen. But in her heart, she is really troubled, afraid of what will be the outcome. Actually, she hasn't been asleep yet, she kept on thinking what will be tomorrow for her. She kept on reminding herself that she should focus on the right path but half of her mind kept on bothering her about him. She can hear his voice in the television, wherever she looked he reminds her of little things. She is now hoping that things will just be fine. She doesn't like to hope or wish for anything beyond on what is bound to happen. Whatever this leads to, she'll be happy just to know that he is just around for her to see.

just a thought

"Sometimes things change, plans fail, joy fades, excitements go. You begin to ask why? but when you look beyond you will see, God has a better plans it just takes time".

afraid for love

my head's in a jam
can't take you off my mind
from the time we met I've been beset by thoughts of you
and the more that I ignore this feeling, the more I find myself believing
that I just have to see you again

I can't let you pass me by I just can't let you go
but i know that i am much too shy to let you know
afraid that i might say the wrong words and displease you
afraid for love to fade before it can come true

like a child again
I'm at a loss for words how does one define a crush
combined with longing
longing to possess you oh so dearly
i'm obsessed by you completely
i'll go mad if i can't have you

I can't let you pass me by I just can't let you go
but i know that i am much too shy to let you know
afraid that i might say the wrong words and displease you
afraid for love to fade before it can come true

ohhhh
repeat chorus


I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
let me say the things and say the words
to let you know
I would rather say the awkward words
than lose you or for love to fade before it can come true

afraid for love to fade before it can come true

why?

For the past two weeks this girl would say she had a great time. He got her attention from the moment he entered the door. The way he carried himself was breathtaking, her heart leapt and she couldn't taken off her eyes on him. She couldn't open her mouth to talk because she was afraid that she might say something that would disappoint him. There were times when he caught her looking at him. His eyes were so expressive for her and when he smiles, her heart beats fast. She did not notice that she was beginning to fall for him. Until the day came that they had to part ways. She was so nervous that she wanted to cry. Half of her wanted to stay longer but it just can't be. When it was time to say goodbye, she couldn't even take a glance of him. She was afraid that tears might fall in her eyes. She tried to look away and compose herself so that she won't bend her knees to stay. When she opened the door and walked away, half of her body was frozen and her heart seemed to have stopped beating. She can't even remember how she had got to the hallway. When she sat on the sofa, she just stared at nowhere, her thoughts were blank and her body was so numb. She wanted to go back and held him in her arms but she was afraid of rejection. So many things ran on her head at that moment but she couldn't figure out what to do. When she went home, she cried inside the comfort room. She can't even take a bite because of her pain. The next morning she thought it was over but the moment she opened her eyes it was his face which came first on her mind. She lay in bed for an hour thinking what if.... she had regrets of not going back to that room where she left him. Now, she was praying that God would give her another chance to spend a day with him. The next day for her seems so empty and she's just hoping that things would turn out right for her.

short story

Once there was a girl, she was attracted to a boy who looked ravishing. The boy was so good in their class, he was intelligent, smart and approachable. One day, she accidentally ran into him. Instead of greeting him, the girl stuttered and couldn't move her feet. The boy almost laughed at her but because the boy was a gentleman, she just said to the girl, "it's okay, everything's going to be alright". She was so embarrassed that she almost cried. After awhile, a couple of her friends asked the boy to have a picture with them, she almost got the chance of being near to him but instead she left the classroom and kept everything to herself. She never regret her decision because it was her choice............... lesson: Look forward and never look back

sadness

I just had a moment of sadness..... I told myself, "I hate this life, stop and think...it's not worth it, just don't look instead close your eyes".

kim hyun joong scandal update

I just came from Liezel' blog and I saw HJ's pictures from his uncle's wedding......

"Finally a photo of Hyun Joong at his cousin's wedding surfaced. ^^ Thanks to Beatrice for shoving the photo here and likewise much thanks to KHJ Perfect/Eunice.

The wedding happened last Saturday, 23rd of January. Hyun Joong rendered a song for the newlyweds to congratulate them for the union. This was his first public appearance after the unfortunate incident."

And according to Joongie4ever from soompi, the issue about hyunjoong and his attendance to ex-president's b-day is no longer a big thing in South Korea. I am glad to hear this kind of comments because it eases my heart.

Aja Aja Fighting Leader....

HYUNGIE'S THOUGHTS

"HYUNGIE" an avid fan of KIM HYUN JOONG leader of SS501. I would say that I am happy to have 6 boys in my life, my son and SS501.