wake up

After so much excitements and day dreaming, she came to her senses now. She is trying to set her mind and put all things behind her. It's not that it is not worth thinking but she thinks that it is the right thing to do. If she'll go on burying herself from what she feels it will surely affect her work. Anyways, she's been always in this situation wherein she's the one who was being left out. She always thought it was her but eventually the truth will come out and it wasn't her instead it was another person. The reason is that, she is fond of assuming and her assumptions always put her in the midst of pain. This time is different though, she has the control over her feelings. She knows now how to manage things as they come. She's too old to dwell so much with petty things. It excites her at first but when it is getting deeper she knows how to come out of the water. She has more important things to look after rather than concentrate with her personal feelings. As what she always says, she can sacrifice her own happiness for her family. She can't compete with the young ones, being at her age and a single mom, they are more likely to be attractive to him than her. She just can't understand herself how she thinks that he would like someone like her. It'll come to pass, she knows that and she can control her mind not to think of him anymore. It's been like this all her life and she's tired of being trap in this kind of situation. She just wants to be happy and she knows that it is up to her to make her life happy.